It is the first week of March, and I am proud to say that we have NOT had one day off of school due to snow this year! Thrilling for me, terribly disappointing for my sons, the lack of snow days has interrupted an editorial challenge of mine. Last year, I lamented pretty frequently about SNOW days and my growing angst over them (especially in transitioning from SAHM to WAHM). I promised that I was not going to blog, vlog, or complain about SNOW days this year, and we end up not having ANY to tempt me!
Well, today my boys do not have school. It is a clerical day. Lucky teachers – I desperately need someone to declare a clerical day for me. Anyway – I bet you think that I am going to vent, be agitated over this day off. Surprisingly, I am NOT aggravated or annoyed, but rather thrilled.
I am not able to speculate exactly why, but I am sort of really happy for the boys day off of school. It is kind of strange that these days stressed me out more as a SAHM, and not as much as WAHM (notice I say ME so this is not meant to be an indictment to anyone). I simply think this substantiates that I am supposed to be doing what I am doing.
I am a better person these days as a business owner. Although the chaos is expanding as my braduct nears completion, my one-on-one customer base grows, and I continue to pick up speaking engagements, I find myself more at ease. Weird.
I am getting better and better at discipline, stronger at organizing and scheduling, and diligent about unplugging at certain times (thanks to my new 2nd floor office). This day is a little different from an unexpected snow day in that I knew that it was coming, so I prepared. I am ready and willing to clear a few hours today.
Although both the boys invited friends over, I am excited to hear their voices around the house, make lunch, and take the gang out for a while.
I think that maybe just maybe this day is a SLAMDUNK for all. This day off is a reprieve for me from the normal routine so it does not seem so bad after all. Without my business, this day may have resembled too many other days, but today it is different, better for ME.
I keep talking about me because I truly do not want to offend anyone, but also possibly to prove to myself that I have made the right choices. Lately, I am ripe with guilt with a big travel schedule this spring and several days that I need extra care to achieve what I set out to achieve. I am pretty sure that my boys are proud and understand my goals and mission, yet the guilt is unavoidable. Looking forward to this day off with the boys and ultimately enjoying it is confirmation for me that the days or hours that I miss are worth it, right for me.
Last week, this post in Forbes by Samantha Ettus brought me to tears. Not because Samantha missed her daughter’s dance performance, but the way other moms (namely Tory Johnson) both individually and as a collective supported her and created a window into the WHY we feel guilt. I commented on Twitter to Samantha that often we feel guilt as moms, but our children have a deeper ability to see our accomplishments. Funny how that works.
Now, if you will excuse me – I am going to workout and enjoy the day ahead of me because tomorrow it is back to rise and grind for the whole crew – school, work, meetings, appointments, homework, and clerical work…oh, and guilt.