I was in a toots this week. No, I do not mean Tootsie
or Tootsie Rolls.
I mean toots. Toots is my new made up word. I know that it is slang for ‘babe’ or ‘sweetie,’ but my toots doesn’t really mean anything. It just sort of came out of my mouth when I was in such a frenzy, tizzy, anxiety-ridden state. I was in a toots.
The last few weeks sort of hit a crescendo for me. I received the latest ‘improvement’ on my prototype that was all wrong. I am waiting on lawyers and packaging designs. I am fighting a cold. My head is swirling from the 12 days in a row that made up my boys’ spring break. My mom is moving, and packing and packing, and moving from my childhood house. You get the picture – I was in a toots.
What did I do? Well, my first two steps were practical, but it was really the third step that was most important.
- I resolved to stop over thinking the Braduct, which now has a name. I am not quite ready to reveal the name, sort of like when a woman is pregnant and they wait until after the birth to announce the baby’s name.
- I decided to be firm in my decision to move forward with the prototype that I adore and take my foot off the brake. Honestly, if I drive any slower on this project it will be slower than my Pappy drove, and he was a SLOW driver.
- I let loose. I broke out of my regular patterns of behavior. Changed it up a bit by:
Gong to the grocery store in the evening by myself and pretending that I was a young college women who only needed a few things.
As in Diet Coke, Licorice, cereal, protein bars, and bananas.
Pretending that I was waking up next to Christian Grey. Need I say more?
Heading to yoga for the 2nd Tuesday Night in a row and not worrying about dinner. Chipotle is more than good enough.
Trying a different Starbucks. A real walk on the wild side.
Having a pricey glass of wine mid-week with no regrets.
Most unbelievable, I took the time to make myself a REAL breakfast – eggs, toast, fruit and juice on ONE (just one) morning.
Sometimes it is so refreshing to break out of the mold. I am not saying to throw out the mold and make a new one, simply change it up for a week or two. Often a little variation in the coordinates are all we need to put US back on the map.
Welcome Back Me. No more toots.
Just Crazy Me.