editors note: just to add to the confusion and angst — the margins and spacing in this post are playing mind games with me and not behaving. sorry in advance.
It has been one of those weeks. You know the ones where you don’t feel as though you are being a good mom, wife, only daughter. or business person? Where you feel scattered and question why you started a home business or perhaps, wanted to be a mompreneur after all? With deadlines, events to hold, clients who hold us accountable, products to keep moving forward, summer schedules, kids to love, husbands to admire, invoices to send, extended families, good friends, and exercise – who knows what to do first?
These are the types of things that come out of my mouth during this type of week: ‘Boys, I wrestled daddy to be able to drive you to camp this morning because I WANTED to chat with you before my busy day but now we are all running late.‘ ‘Oh Shit, How did my meter expire when I literally ran into the post office to mail off a giveaway?’ ‘It wasn’t my fault that I got a $20 parking ticket.’ “Mom – Your move is going to go smoothly, but I just can’t chat right now.‘ and the ever famous….. ‘Not now honey‘ or some variation of that.
After a few days of having your heart torn in a million directions and nor feeling faithful to any of them, the only result (for me) is sheer exhaustion. So, after a really good night’s sleep, I find myself in bed at 5 a.m. thinking of my mom’s move today and how I will clear my head and be there in body, mind, and spirit. I dream of a few hours alone with my husband over the weekend (maybe my mom can host the boys for dinner at her new place?). I consider what I can do with the boys tomorrow since they don’t have camp and how I can be fully attentive and in the moment. I also have a nagging impulse to thank all my fellow bloggers and friends who supported me at my event yesterday.
The point is: I need to take a very large, deep breath and move forward. I need to look at the sunshine and be in the moment and realize that it will get done when it gets done, and I am not that bad after all. At least, that is what I tell myself (knowing that I have to go on the radio this weekend and discuss squeezing a new fitness routine into an already crammed schedule).
Since, I am always thinking about this here blog, I leave you with this…
What all moms (in business or not) should keep in their car at all times because we never know when a scattered day will hit:
- Quarters. There is no way around an expired meter. Period.
- Hair Brush. Simply put, moms do not always get to do this (well) before leaving the house.
- Lip Gloss & Concealer. Slap both of these on after a good hair brushing and you are good to go.
- Phone Charger. No need to even explain.
- Pen and Paper. There is always the last-minute dismissal note to school or broken meter.
- Licorice or Something Like It. Many occasions require a sugar burst. Many.
- Garbage Bag. Clean up your car once a week (at least)..You probably spend more time in it than your office or anywhere else.
- Socks. For shoe shopping or for swapping with wet ones from whatever outdoor sporting event you are attending.
- Feminine Products. Just take my word.
- A good dose of sanity. Not sure where you can buy this yet, but I think that I am going to start at Nordstrom’s. I think they probably have it in their shoe department.